Laurie's Oneness Experience

On September 14, 2003, I had the most profound experience of my life! I achieved Oneness - non-duality - with all that is. I was All, and All was me. There was no separation between myself, my body, and everything else.

In the months preceding this extraordinary experience, I felt I was being given the Buddha Enlightenment test. The Buddha was said to have achieved enlightenment by being able to stay centered and spiritually-focused while all forms of chaos were going on around him. At this time, it seemed everyone around me, especially my family, was going through chaos, drama and trauma. I felt my job was to be supportive and have compassion but to stay in my light and on my path. My friends were surprised that I was so calm, especially when my teenagers were creating havoc and making very poor decisions. My advice to them was, "Know that you have wisdom inside of you, and that you can use that wisdom to make wise choices" (even when they weren't making wise decisions). The Universe must have thought I was passing the test, and I was rewarded with a life-transforming Oneness experience.

It happened during a - "Over the Bridge and Into the Rainbow - The Oneness Seminar" - that I was teaching in Boston. These were very high-level students I was working with, and it was at least the fourth class that each of them had taken with me. This was also the day that the Dalai Lama was in Boston, and enlightened beings from all over had come to see him. In other words, the energy was very high in the town and in the seminar. Perhaps this added to my experience.

I was preparing to give a Breath of I'o (an ancient Hawaiian term for God) initiation when I felt the energy that I usually tap into getting much stronger. Then I stood up and asked for the highest level of Breath of I'o that I could easily accommodate to come through me for the purpose of initiating my students. Suddenly, my consciousness expanded out to be One with everything. There was no limit. I was everything and everything was One. I could not feel my body as a separate entity. There was no time. There were no thoughts (a major feat for a double Gemini!). My apprentice had to help move me (and sometimes gently shove me) from person to person, moving my hands to the next person's shoulders. Some of my students said they heard no sound as I moved from one to the other. All of them felt the incredibly powerful initiation they got, most saying they knew it was not just me, Laurie, giving the initiation.

When we were done with the initiation, I still could not feel my body. I initially could not open my eyes and could barely move. I could only whisper, and some of my students mentioned that the whisper did not sound like my voice. Someone put cashews in my hand but I could not feel them. My apprentice gave me my cup of water, but I couldn't feel it, either. He helped hold the cup while I tried to bring it to my mouth, but instead I hit my nose! We all had a good laugh over that. My apprentice then suggested I ask a higher being for help. I sent out the thought: "Is there a higher being out there who can help me integrate this experience into my body?" I heard my own thought come back like an echo, repeating the same request: "Is there a higher being out there who can help me integrate this experience into my body?" This was (and is, since it is still going on) highly unusual for me because I have always had direct contact with my guides and the Source. I realized then that I was even One with the guides and the Source!

Later that afternoon, I was to do another initiation. In this one, I initiate the students to the Divine Peace Perspective. When I asked for the highest level of that energy to come through me that I could easily accommodate, there was no separate higher energy. I already was it. Now, every time I close my eyes, I am back in the state I was in, back in the class where there seems to be no separation of anything including my body. This is even happening while I am sleeping. During the daytime, with my eyes open, I am still aware of the state of connectedness though I have complete control over my body. I have no other higher beings or higher energies that I can connect with - I am them. I am there.

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In non-duality Oneness the personal self has to die, or at least become greatly diminished and become one with the Big Self. It's as if a droplet of water suddenly realizes that it is one with the ocean. The perspective of the ocean becomes the focal point, not the separate water droplet.

If we are all one, then what is the purpose of life? I have believed for many years that we are all aspects of the Divine Source. Our purpose is to go throughout lifetime after lifetime evolving until we are enlightened enough to join completely with the Divine Source again.

The analogy I use is that all of the water on this planet is essentially the same water, but we look up into the sky and see the different cloud forms. There are cumulus, stratus and cirrus clouds, but all of them are just made up of water particles. The clouds float over to the mountains and put a piece of themselves out in the form of rain, hail and snow. It is the water particle's job to go through the streams, lakes, waterfalls, and rivers until it is emptied out into the ocean where it is evaporated back up into the clouds again. This recycling process is the way that all of the water on this planet attempts to keep itself clean, clear, pure and non-stagnant.

In the same way, the Divine Source can have many different forms which are the God heads; Buddha, Allah, the Great Spirit, the Supreme Being, etc., but each of them is just made up of Divine Source energy. The Divine Source puts forth a piece of itself that becomes each of our Beings, souls or spirits. Our job is to go throughout our life times, becoming cleaner, becoming purer, until we are ready to be to be absorbed back into the Divine Source again. This is the way the Divine Source continually evolves and keeps itself from becoming stagnant.

The more that we can remember that we are a piece of the Divine Source, the more quickly we can evolve. Now is the time to take more conscious action and responsibility in being one with the Divine Source. ARCH is a way to do that!

I am seeing the Universe through a compassionate state. No judgments, just compassion. I feel bliss but also somewhat detached. I really, truly get it now. We are One with each other, with everything in the Universe and with the Source! We are very blessed! If we all lived our lives knowing that we are One, there would be no war, no poverty, no hunger, and no judgments. It is up to all of us to live the vision of Oneness now!